Clair de Lune.

Sometimes, I really wish I could play the piano. I have always been a big fan of classical music, in fact I am a fan of all things old, things that seem forgotten by others. And sometimes, I hear something that really moves me, and I wish desperately that I could walk over to the piano and play it, and that something beautiful would come out. I feel that being able to play that song would be wonderfully soothing. And no, I did not hear Claire de Lune from Twilight, I feel that even associating something so perfect with a joke like Twilight is a sin. No, I heard this watching an English film called "I Capture the Castle". I believe that most people would turn it off in the first five minutes, because it is not fast paced, something that we as Americans have grown addicted to, but I immediately loved it. It reminds me of Pride and Prejudice, one of my all time favorites and I could identify with it completely, and when the song came on, it was so perfect and I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry for the sheer intensity of the moment, cry for people that will never experience that feeling, cry for not being able to produce something like that. Yes, I am quite a dork and completely dramatic but I do believe that I would have it no other way. I believe the people that feel with their entire essence are able to see life in a way that others cannot. And if you immediately do not understand what I am trying to express then sadly, you may not be one of those people. I feel that I would like to surround myself with others that would have the same reaction I did to this song, people that would understand. I also feel that some cruel joke has been played on me, to quote Pride and Prejudice, "I should have been a great proficient if I had ever learned". I truly am an artist, and I stopped that from ever coming to fruition. I want at this minute nothing more than to change that.